104 Days of Summer

I hope you are enjoying your holiday, or like they are calling it in this month’s issue, 104 days of summer vacation. I gotta be honest. I was happy when you texted today. Of course, I knew you wanted to ask me something, but nevertheless, I smiled. One might wonder, why be happy over such a text?

See, I think I have already said that I consider you the most remarkable girl I’ve met-complete in all ways, a quiet introspection, reserved and with a certain aloofness. (I wanna remain anonymous but this might sell me out a bit. FYI, it’s whoever you are thinking).

Enough with the praise already. Sometimes I go back to our conversations and realize that we only talked because we had things to do together…which were defined by the leadership roles we each had. It was in the middle of such talks I could sneak in a different theme while stalling the intended topic. It is because of these duties we would keep constant communication.

Some days, I would decide to be petty and complain how you only talked to me when in need but being honest, the other few times I called you up, you would occasionally show up. The absence of your availability is what made the little time you were available so golden. I even once made an article -Demure- which no body really realized it was about you. Of course it wasn’t exactly what you would do, but it was a representation of you.

You are one person who always strives for perfection and your way, even in the little things. I hope you’re loosening a bit this holiday. I wonder how your holiday days look like. Mine a very different, from the moment I wake up to the time I sleep, depending of the season (if I’m at home) or the amount of duties I have (assuming I’m away from home). What do you do when you wake up and are probably done with house chores?

What do you do for fun? Reading? What about when you are not reading? I know I watch movies, play video games, take strolls... such kind of things. But we are so different, I’m more of all fun and you are more of all deliberation. If we were to spend a summer vacation together, would we have things in common to do and talk about? I would like to hear about your idea of a perfect relationship -though I have caught a glimpse of that from our conversations.

Maybe I would like us to take a stroll together, but then what would we talk about? Maybe I would take you to the beach, but most of the times I just go to watch the waves as people swim and have fun and maybe walk across the shore as water brushes past my feet. What would you like to do? Maybe take a floater and get into water together? Or you ain’t even a fan of beaches? Would you write your name on the sand and let the waves wash it out?

You are impossible to read, I gotta admit. You can be intimidating at times. I sometimes wish I knew you better… just you, without me asking questions. I admire you for sure. Though I usually say we’re so opposite to ever be in a relationship, I know that you got all the qualities of someone I would fall for.

I wonder what would make you loosen a bit. I wonder if you are curious and explorative. I wonder if you occasionally intentionally go against the set norms just for the fun of it. I wonder if you take life that serious or you just live a day at a time. I wonder if you could charm people in if you were a sales person, or you would be the business person whose nonchalance scares the customers away. However, if I were a customer for a product or service you offered, your cute face would charm me in.

Enjoy most of this holiday. Go for electives even. Make memories with the old or new friends. Bond with family. Read more books to expand your knowledge. Read other people’s blogs (I wonder if you read the one whose link you asked me) Do something outside your norm for once. These 104 days of summer vacation, I’ll think of you for 52 days. I know we might probably not talk and if we do, it will be for less than five days. But it is what it is.

Today, I am not going to sign off. You are treasured, and I keep thinking of what your friend said about you. I wonder if she talks with you about me too. Its funny, right? Instead of making my summer vacation plans, I’m wondering about yours. Mine? I’m just gonna live one day at a time, loosen up a bit and do much of discovery. Bye for now.